It is with a VERY heavy heart that I report that my beloved pup of 14 years has passed yesterday, October 3rd. It was the hardest thing I have ever experienced and I have watched my mother, father and brother all pass before me. Life sucks at the moment.

Please forgive me if I do not post this week – although I may if I am feeling up to it.

Also, I apologize if any comments or e-mails are not responded to in a timely manner.

Here are some pics taken of her over the years. My heart truly aches.

22 thoughts on “Devastated…

  1. I am truly sorry for the untimely passing of your wonderful dog companion. Dogs are so much a part of many of our lives and I would feel lost without my Sissy.
    Hugs and kisses to you my friend
    Leon Fowler

  2. My deepest condolences. The affection we can have with our little companions is indescribable. I have always believed that it is a very short time …

  3. Very sorry to hear your news. There are thousands of guys round the world sending you hugs at this sad time.
    Take your time to remember the happy times with Phoenix.

  4. I lost my pack alpha, Apollo, suddenly in 2015. I was closer to Apollo than I was to any other living thing, including humans, he was indeed my most loyal friend. The devastation was nearly unbearable for three weeks.

    If I may, please accept some advise: 1) Allow yourself to grieve, those people who will say ‘it was only a dog’ do not understand, and, frankly, you might want to re-evaluate your relationship with them. Allow yourself to grieve, suppressing it is indeed unhealthy. 2) As you grieve, remember to take care of yourself and those dependent upon you. When Apollo passed, I was so devastated that it took me a week to realize the rest of my pack was also grieving, and I needed to help them as much as they needed to help me.

    Now, let me share a couple of quotes that help me.

    “Real loss only occurs when you’ve loved something more than you love yourself.”
    – Dr. Sean Maguire, Good Will Hunting


    Death is not the villain, but the hero. Death is the reliever of pain; the eraser of deformity. Death provides a new start; an entry to the next world. Death does not come to take, Death comes to give; Death gives rest, comfort, relief, and peace everlasting.


    Pets teach you responsibility, patience, kindness, discipline, playfulness and, most importantly, unconditional love.


    Having a dog will bless you with the happiest days of your life, and one of the worst days.


    And this last one is my own

    How long does grief last? Grief is directly proportional to love, the more you loved, the longer your grief will last. Years later, when a memory first brings a smile, and then a tear, that is love and grief continuing in equal measures.


    I hope I helped, maybe just a little. I do understand and share your pain.

    One last thought:

    When it comes to losing a pet, there are three kinds of people – the first say “The pain is too much, I will never have another pet”; the second says “I have to wait a while before I can get another pet”; and I fall in the third group and say “My heart has so much love to share and no place for it to go, I need to adopt another pet very soon.”

    Good luck, and please, do consider another pet, there are so many unwanted and unloved pets in the world, adopting one will not change the world, but it will change the world for that one pet.

    My apologies for the long comment, my heart aches for you, and I wanted to try to help.


  5. I am so sorry to hear your news. I lost my dog, Lucy, to cancer in 2015 and it has left a massive hole in me, if that makes sense. I have just learned to live with it and adjust since then, but at the time it felt like there was no point to anything any more.

    I was frequently asked if I would get another dog, but I just couldn’t, as Lucy WAS my dog, my family, my everything. How could I ever replace her (I know that it is different for different people and I am not judging those who are able to get a new dog).

    There were many people who just did not understand my loss, but would have if it had been a person.

    I just wanted to share this with you, not to talk about myself, but so that you know that there are some individuals who have a sense of what you are going through and feel for you and that you are not alone.

    I wish you well.

  6. Sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved puppy I’ve lost many animals in my life I know how hard and heart-wrenching it can be

  7. With us Gay people, the loss of a pet of long standing is worse than any human. Dogs are eternally forgiving loving and Giving. I am so sorry for your loss

  8. The death of a longtime companion is truly devastating. Please take care of yourself, do whatever you need to do, and as much as possible, follow Jimmy’s excellent advice.

  9. Dogs are so special, they live with us for a short time, they change us for the best, and then they leave us better for the experience. But then, they actually never leave us because so much of their spirit lives on in our heats and mind.

    All the best in these difficult days.


  10. I never cried so long or so hard as I did for my beagle in 2012. Even today, I still get choked up thinking about him. It took a few months before I was ready to adopt a new best friend, but we’ve been together now for 9 wonderful years.
    You can’t separate a boy and his dog. They’re bonded at first sight and they have each other’s back for life. Dogs are a proof of God.

  11. Phoenix looks like a good dog. I know there is a hole in your heart. But, it also looks like you gave Phoenix a great life, and that’s the best thing we can do for these wonderful animals. Condolences.

  12. Grateful you had all those great years together. Thanks for sharing the pics of the wonderful Phoenix and for sharing yourself and what you are going through. Sorry for your loss.

  13. I’m so sorry to hear this news Jason. I imagine you are hurting real bad. Take your time, take care of yourself, and heal.

  14. So sorry to hear about your dog. But I will say this – because of you that dog had a happy and fulfilling life. I can tell you loved him very much and what more could a pet want? May yiu see him again in puppy heaven.

  15. Losing a beloved pet is the worst – it is a cruel trick of fate that their lives are so comparatively short – they give us so much and ask so little in return – take your time to work through the process that is right for you – thank you for all that you do for us out here in the web

  16. So sorry for your loss. Our four-legged friends are very special and the bonds we have with them are pure and unconditional. That kind of love is something to treasure.

  17. Jason, so sorry for the loss of your canine companion. I’m sure your pup was so loved as you’ve shared with all of us over the years. Condolences.

  18. Oh Jason, I am so sorry to hear your sad news. My Jack Russell terrier will be 13 next month, he’s not just been PART of my life since first getting him as a puppy, he has virtually BEEN my life for all these years. Whilst he’s still in good health he’s noticeably getting older, and I know the day will inevitably come when I have to go through what you are dealing with now.

    And it’s unimaginable to me. My heart goes out to you at this tremendously sad time.

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